September 10th- Coming up out of a Low Vibration

I have debated using pictures on this blog, but know that if I commit to pictures, I will wind up getting tired of writing here. I do not want to document my life with pictures, as it becomes tedious. We are consumed with our phones, and photos. I also want to keep the privacy of individuals by not photographing my real life here. I do share oodles about myself on YouTube (169) Sheep Hill Herbs - YouTube   

I also do not want to put AI generated photos here. I want to tell stories. I want to tell stories that remind me of tales of old. I would immerse myself in my father's books; he was a history teacher and avid reader. There were no pictures. My mind created the pictures. The words and letters and storytelling was so good and vivid that pictures were not necessary. 

​This afternoon I realized I had thought myself into a low vibe place. Just this past Sunday, about 4 days ago, I was in a high vibe place. If I employ muscle testing, which is what I do, I would say I was a 7/10 on Sunday. If I continue to employ muscle testing, I don't know if I have ever been above a 7 in my life! The scale I use is my scale and I use this for when I test herbs for people. I have muscle tested a lot of beautiful, attractive, and magnetic individuals and they are usually high vibe, like a 7 and higher, often. 

This afternoon when I realized I was in a slump, which is hard to realize when you are actually in it- I muscle tested myself and found I was a 2/ 10. Ugggghhh! I then went back in time to Monday where I had gone from a 7/ 10 the day before to a 2 out of 10 and then persisted at a 2 for two more days, until Wednesday when I began coming up to a 3. Then I plummeted back down to a 2 Wednesday evening and remained there until I was sitting on my lawn chair Thursday afternoon wondering why I seem to go up and down and up and down with my emotions so often.

The truth is I tend to abandon my desires, and people please. This causes me to say YES when I mean NO and also causes me to NOT do what I want and then feel anger at those, I help do what they want. For the privacy of certain individuals, I will say that there are some close relatives in my life that I feel compelled to please at the expense of myself. Maybe you can relate. Why? Why? This is what I ask myself. Lately I have been thinking it is because I do not feel capable of "making it on my own," in this life and so I fear being rejected by certain people who I rely on heavily for my financial security.

I thought of these things as I sat on my lawn chair and realized my vibe had dropped to a 2- again and I thought "ENOUGH!" I have had enough of my own energy and vibration dropping down because of the actions, and/ or inactions of certain individuals in my life. I need to turn to my desires, what I can do, what I want, what I am supposed to do with my life. 

Sounds selfish? Maybe. But I think it is more selfish to hide my own light and never live my God-given purpose because I am afraid to displease man. God give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference!

When I figured out, I had let myself drop down to a 2 with my thoughts and vibration, I determined to do something about it, this time. I think I normally wait for circumstances to change with certain individuals so that I can feel better when they either act better, or compliment me, or make me feel better by their words, or deeds, or good behavior. ENOUGH! I say ENOUGH of this. 

That is when I felt inspired to start writing my story. If you read the previous blog post I shared how this year, the year of 2026 was to be the year of "This Book Belongs to Me." I did not know what that meant, until today. This is my book, this blog. This is my story. I am an Herbalist. I am a Healer. I am a wife and mother, and I struggle every day on this journey of life. This blog is my record of successes and wins, and also just what I am going through. I will share what I do to help myself- to find peace and to find healing. I do not want this to be prescriptive. This is inspired writing. I want the writings to be Holy Spirit inspired. 

Today what did I learn? I learned that I am the medicine. Guess what? When I muscle test myself right now- at this moment, I get that my vibe is an 8! Wo-hoo!